Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I love what I never wanted

I never wanted to come back to England. When I left my life in Asia, I felt like my world was coming to an end, and that there was nothing God could possibly give me that would match the joy and fulfillment I'd experienced in the past 18 months abroad.


I spent the first couple of months in the UK culture shocked, stressed, and dreaming of the day I would get on a plane and fly back to the US and university. It came as a surprise six months later when I suddenly thought, "I'm actually happy here! Not just plodding on because I know God's put me here, but genuinely happy!"


God has given me so many gifts while I've been here. Some of those gifts have come wrapped with great pain and frustration, and yet that pain has helped me to grow in leaps and bounds and opened the way for deep friendships. I wouldn't change anything that's happened. I'm so glad I came back to England!



In about three months I'll be on my way again. There are a lot of uncertainties in my future, and there are still a lot of things I get stressed about. But I can look back and know that the God who has continually given me more than I was expecting, is more than able to provide for the days ahead.

"There are always uncertainties ahead, but there is always one certainty--God's will is good."  Vernon Paterson

3 comments:

  1. This is truely a beautiful moment! I'm so happy for you. :) are you coming to the states? Someday I hope we can meet in person. ;) You are in my prayers. Love you, sister!

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  2. I hope so Jenae! It would be great to meet :) I'm planning on going to university at SAU. Love, praying for you too!

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  3. AWW!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SEE FAMILIAR PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE SO SWEET!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'd never been to England I was scared to come here for the first time, and YOU were one of the biggest gifts God gave me upon coming here. I love you so much Lynette!!!!!! Btw, there's no way you're an ordinary girl. Thou art extraordinary and I kid thee not.

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